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Dear Me At Fifteen




  A Poetry and Self-Expression Book

  By Jennae Cecelia

  Dear Me At Fifteen

  Interior written and designed

  by Jennae Cecelia

  Cover design by Islam Farid

  www.islamfarid.net

  Copyright © 2018 by Jennae Cecelia. All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner without written permission from the author except for the use of brief quotation in a book review or scholarly journal.

  ISBN: 9781730962189

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination or are used factiously. Any resemblance to actual events of locales or personas, living or dead is entirely coincidental.

  For my readers and my dreamers-

  This book is for you.

  Six books in and I couldn’t thank you more

  for the never-ending support.

  Here’s to many more books, beautiful souls.

  The poems that make up this book are bits and pieces of advice that I wish I would have known at the age of fifteen.

  Being a teen is all about self-discovery, but as the years have gone on, I have realized I am constantly trying to figure out who exactly I am.

  Dear Me at Fifteen is to not only inspire you to be the best version of yourself today and in the future, but for you to reflect on all the growth you have made.

  As you read this book you will notice that it is half poetry and half self-expression journal.

  It is meant for you to dig deep into yourself and answer questions you don’t always take the time to think about.

  Since this is the ebook version, grab your

  own journal or piece of paper to write

  the answers to.

  Enjoy some inspiration and self-reflection.

  Write a message to the top of those mountains.

  What do you think you will see at the top

  when you arrive? How will that make you feel?

  When anxious thoughts appear in your mind, what would you want to tell yourself at that time to help you get through it?

  Write about a destination on your map you want to visit. It could be a feeling, a place, or a person! Why do you want to go there?

  What types of feelings do you experience when you are alone?

  Write a letter to your mind, body, and soul

  about how wonderful you are.

  Write a letter for your future self for when

  things don’t go as planned. Go back to read

  when needed.

  Write a letter filled with reasons why

  you love yourself. Keep adding to this

  list if you can’t think of many right away.

  Write about a time something didn’t go as planned, but turned out being one of the best things that could have happened in the situation.

  Make a list of all the people who bring joy

  into your life and why.

  If you leave out people who are involved in your life, write about why they didn’t make your list.

  Think of something you are super

  passionate about.

  What keeps you pushing towards

  that passion even on days of uncertainty?

  Write a letter to someone describing to them something hard you battle in your daily life,

  and why it is important to you that they

  understand this battle.

  What or who is your motivation to keep on swimming forward even if the tide is rough?

  Write a kind letter to your stretch marks, your zits, acne scars, or cellulite.

  What would be the first thing you would say to the sun if it shined in your life for the first time in awhile?

  What does happiness look like to you?

  Write a letter to yourself describing your version of what happiness is.

  What is something that is out of your comfort zone that you want to do?

  What would it feel like to do that?

  Something that both scares and excites you at the same time!

  How many times a day do you tell yourself how much you love yourself?

  Why do you think it is that number?

  Where do you want to see yourself five years

  from now?

  What makes you smile a huge and genuine smile?

  What was one of the messiest times that

  you went through?

  What did it teach you going forward?

  If you could have one of your biggest dreams

  come true, what would it be?

  What are small daily things you can

  do to give yourself more love and care?

  List them out and then start adding some

  into your daily routine.

  Are you happy or unhappy with your life currently?

  Why do you feel that way and what

  can you do to change that?

  Has anxiety ever stopped you from doing

  something you wanted to do?

  If so, what was it?

  If you don’t have anxiety,

  write a letter to someone who does

  and let them know you are there for them.

  You are blooming into such a beautiful flower.

  What flower would it be and why?

  How does the flower reflect who you are?

  Describe yourself as if you are viewing

  yourself from a third-person perspective.

  Write a letter reminding yourself just how important your mental health is.

  If you are having trouble coming up with ideas while reading this, come back to it later when you feel like the time is right.

  Often times we fear losing happiness.

  But the truth is, happiness may come and go,

  but it is never permanently gone.

  Write a letter to happiness. Tell happiness

  how you feel about it and how important

  it is to you.

  What do you consider a “flaw” on your body,

  and why do you view it as a flaw?

  What makes you feel doubtful? Is it a person, situation, etc.? Write a letter to the part of you that can doubt yourself at times and tell them

  why you don’t need to be doubtful.

  Write a letter to who you want to be

  in ten years.

  When you anthem comes, what will it be about?

  Write out your most common daily routine.

  Is that the routine you always want?

  What would you like your day to day life

  to look like instead, if not?

  Which stage of growth are you in?

  Did you just plant your seeds.

  is your green stem appearing,

  or is your flower in bloom?

  What are you doing to continue

  your growth?

  What does your perfect day look like?

  This could be weather, activities, etc.

  Write out your dream day!

  Describe what, “silence” sounds like

  in your mind.

  If you could wear a shirt that said everything you wanted people to understand about you, what would it say?

  What is your victory today? Big or small,

  write about it!

  Describe what it will feel like to rise after

  a dark period of time.

  What is something that you have done that

  still shocks you that you were able to do?

  Or what is something you want to do to shock yourself?

  What causes you to feel empty at times?

  How do you overcome that empty feeling?

  Take time to silence your mind for ten

  minutes, then come bac
k and write about

  how you feel, and what is on your mind now.

  Would you rather feel each emotion or no emotions at all? Why?

  You have an open road ahead of you and no worries on on your mind.

  Where are you going to go and why?

  Make a list of goals you want to accomplish and how you are going to accomplish each goal.

  What is something you keep saying you

  will do tomorrow and why aren’t you

  doing it today?

  Do you lean on yourself or others more

  for help? Why do you think that is?

  Write to someone that you burned bridges

  with or haven’t talked to in a long time

  because of conflict.

  What would you want to say to them

  after all this time?

  Write about what makes you beautiful

  without talking about physical features.

  What is YOUR story?

  What was a life-changing decision that

  you made and why was it life-changing?

  What do you appreciate most about

  your body?

  Write about how you want people to treat you

  and how you treat other people.

  Write about what it would feel like to

  have no and plans and nothing due.

  Write about how it would feel to have a

  free day to do anything.

  What does naturally beautiful mean to you?

  Write about what it feels like to both

  look and feel happy.

  What is stopping you from loving

  your body 100%?

  What does being in love feel like to you?

  This could mean being in love with

  yourself or someone else.

  Do you often go to others for advice or

  do people come to you for advice?

  Why do you think that is?

  You have your own unique voice.

  What do you want to share with people

  that they can’t find out from just anyone?

  You have blank canvas. What are you going

  to paint on it?

  What is one selfish thing you would do

  for yourself?

  What is one selfless thing you would do

  for someone else?

  Do you criticize or compliment people

  more and why?

  Have your failures stopped you from

  doing what you truly wanted to do?

  Why? And how can you learn from

  those failures instead?

  What is behind the door you want

  to choose?

  What was one of the most

  fulfilling moments of you life thus far?

  How do you handle problems?

  Do you think you could handle them

  better? If so, how?

  Do you tell yourself that you are worthy

  of your biggest dream?

  If not, write here why you are

  worthy of it.

  What does getting outside of your

  comfort zone look and feel like to you?

  You are almost at the end of a bumpy

  road. What is there when you arrive?

  What stage are you in right now?

  Is your flower dropping more petals

  than you would like?

  Or is it full of petals?

  What lights the fire inside of you?

  What do you do when that light

  starts to dim?

  If today was a bad day, what would you

  normally do when having a bad day?

  Is there a better way you can handle

  your bad days?

  What do you consider being busy?

  Are you busy because you have a lot to do

  or are you busy because you aren’t

  managing your time in the best way?

  How long have you been on your

  current path in life?

  Are you happy with the scenery?

  Why or why not?

  Remind yourself once an hour today

  that, “you are great.”

  Then come back at the end of the day

  and write how you feel here.

  Do the people you surround yourself with

  make you feel 100% happy with who

  you are with them?

  Why or why not?

  Leave yourself a piece of advice here to

  come back to when you need it.

  Write about how it is ok to say, “no”

  and not feel one bit bad about it.

  What fears do you have about succeeding?

  Whether it is in a career or relationships,

  why do you fear it?

  Spill your truth onto this page.

  Maybe it is something no one knows

  about you, or maybe it is something

  no one believes is true.

  What opportunity have you been ignoring

  but should be paying more attention to?

  Write a letter the ten-year-old

  you, and tell them what you would

  have wanted to hear then.

  How do you want this earth to

  remember you?

  What does your forecast look like today

  and why?

  Imagine that it is the first day of summer

  and you have no worries at all.

  What type of day would you want?

  Are you open minded or close minded

  and why?

  Do you prefer to write out your feelings

  or talk them out, and why?

  What color are you going to paint your

  walls and why?

  What are a few pieces of advice you have

  that you feel like others would benefit

  from knowing.

  Write them here and then share with

  a friend who may need to hear what you

  have to say.

  Write a letter to yourself to wake you

  up when you are doubting your

  strength to rise.

  Write a letter to your soul.

  What type of tree do you think represents

  you best and why?

  Do you invest more time into

  finding love from yourself or

  finding love with someone else?

  Why?

  Write about a time in your life when

  something didn’t seem important at

  the time, but now you miss it.

  Do you dress to impress other people

  or do you do it for yourself?

  Why?

  Are you more curious about how

  your mind works or the world works?

  Why?

  Do you prefer to have a lot of friends

  or a few quality friends?

  Why?

  Remember that time you thought

  that this was the worst thing that

  could happen to you, how did you

  overcome that?

  Write a message to the Universe, God,

  or any higher power you believe in.

  If you don’t believe in anything, then

  write a letter to yourself with all the

  things you are hoping for in life right now.

  If you could replicate any moment

  in time, what would it be?

  Draw your self-care list here

  Draw what you do to calm your

  anxiety. If you don’t have anxiety,

  draw what calms you.

  Breath in, breath out.